When you are at your peak comfort feeling with your life and feel super confident that you are on top of everything, life strikes you with an abrupt jerk. It’s like waking up someone from deep slumber by throwing a bucket full of scalding hot water on the face.
With it, everything turns over its heels. You are grounded with a huge thud. Everything that seemed to be nice now looks vicious. People for whom you cared for, helped and mentored become your worse foes.
Such is the mysterious way of God's workings. During these troubled times, you have very few sympathizers, even rare supporters and absolutely no one who you can trust to stand along with you. It is a time when you feel the entire world is conspiring against you.
Loss of confidence, irritation at small things, continuous brooding over what just happened, lack of tolerance are just a few things that happen to you.
More importantly, something curdles deep within you. The values you had embraced all along your life are deeply shaken up. You lose faith completely and feel that nothing will ever be able to repair the damage done to your psyche.
It is often said that when all the doors are closed, God quietly opens another door to lead you onto the right path. Is the same happening? How to identify that particular door?
Is this the time to quit? Or these are tasting times where one is supposed to stay calm, keep faith and prove one's mettle? Is it God's device to teach you how to become strong and brave such storms? Are these just temporary obstacles so that you understand and appreciate the value of the road you have travelled so far? Is it to make you understand the importance of the road ahead? Is it to steer your mind to think in some other direction which may have been overlooked?
Whatever that is - I am trying to convince myself that it’s just a phase, everything happens for good and no one can change your destiny except the Almighty. I am trying to take this lesson so that I can emerge stronger at the end of this phase.
Hope I will succeed. It is easier said than done so please wish me luck.